• Can you be yourself without knowing yourself?

      If your 'self' is evolving, how can you know yourself? How can you be an evolving 'self'?

      If you cannot be yourself, how can anyone love you?

      If you are trying to be someone else, or you are afraid to be present... how can anybody be with you?

      Is this why you feel lonely, disconnected?

      Who are you being if you are not being yourself?

      How many selves do you actually have?

      No one can be you for you.

      No one can stop you from being yourself, but you.

      What is this 'self' anyway?

      NOTE: We think that there will be a point in this website at which the contents are no longer useful or relevant for you. This point indicates how much of what kind of Matrix you have built so far. This feedback is useful information for you while you are exploring the edges. It does not work to try to go farther than you are. Trying to force the Universe to agree that you are somewhere other than where you are can have sudden nasty side-effects, such as insanity or accidental death. The Universe does not like to be forced.

      So when this website ceases to make sense to you, please stop there for a while. You can come back to it later. Accept with gratitude your 'X' on the map telling you: "This is as far as you can go, for now." Where you are right now is, in reality, extraordinary.

      We propose that you try to be where (and what) you are right now, and focus your intentions on becoming absurdly effective in the skills and services you can deliver right now.

      You can only create and navigate the Spaces that you can create and navigate now. We propose that you create and navigate those spaces (such as Emotional Healing Processes (EHP), S.P.A.R.K. Study Group, Possibility Team, WorkTalk, Workshop, Rage Club, Fear Club, EHP Dojo, Possibility Coaching...) with fierce excellence until you can somehow suddenly create and navigate other kinds of spaces. This is 'being yourself' in action.

      After a while, come back and visit this website again, find your new current 'X'. This is like watching the film: My Dinner With Andre (Matrix Code MOVIE231.00) and clocking exactly how many minutes you can watch the film before going unconscious. Six months later watch this same film again, and Notice the difference due to the Matrix you have been building during Possibilitator Training.

    • What Is The 'Self'?

      TRULY COMMITTING TO THE LIFE-LONG PATH OF BEING YOURSELF

      COMMON DEFINITIONS FOR 'SELF'

      If you look up Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware definitions for the English word 'self', what you will find are various descriptions of the psycho-emotional Survival Strategy that most people are identified with, their 'ego'. Modern culture teaches that who you are is your 'Box', a conglomeration of rules, assumptions, expectations, conclusions, memories, beliefs, prejudices, habits, preferences, opinions, what you know, etc.

       

      'Self' is commonly defined as:

      • 'The set of someone's characteristics, such as personality and ability, that are not physical and make that person different from other people.'
      • 'Your self is your sense of who you are, deep down — your identity. "When you let someone else know you well, you reveal your 'true' self to them."
      • 'Your sense of self refers to your perception of the collection of characteristics that define you.'
      • 'Your beliefs about yourself, including your belief about your attributes and who and what the self is.'
      • 'Your personality, character, temperament, identity, temper, disposition, individuality.' "She was back to her old self again."

      This concept of 'self' only come into popular use during the past hundred years or so. In the 1100s 'self' meant: 'the person or thing previously specified'. In the early 1300's it meant 'a person in relation to that same person'. In 1880 G.M. Hopkins used 'selve' as a verb, meaning, 'to become or cause to become a unique self', but its use seems to have been restricted to poets.

       

      Relating with your 'self' as your Box, and relating with other people's 'selves' as their Box, explains a lot about the shallowness and existential dilemmas facing western civilization in the early 21st Century.

       

      The 'Box' is your protection, your Survival Strategy. If your Box can protect itself and be 'right' then its survival tactics will continue working. This is why your Box will protect itself first, before it protects you. This is why a threat to your 'lifestyle' or an insult to your 'personality' feels so dangerous and triggers so much gut-level fear, offense, and reactivity.

       

      You have been trained to identify with being your Box, and to make sure that, above all else, your Box is 'right' (even if your Box is right that you are wrong, or bad, or stupid, or do not fit in, etc.)

       

      Everyone else around you is trained the same way. This is why being identified seems normal.

       

      In fact, if you meet someone who is 'disidentified', who is more unhookable than you are, they may seem to be 'cold', 'untouchable', or frighteningly 'not human'. You will not be able to control them or manipulate them using your Box's automatic reactions:

      • Channel 1 (fight, or explode) get rid of them
      • Channel 2 (flight) get rid of yourself
      • Channel 3 (freeze, or implode) go invisible

      Something completely different from this kind of living and relating is possible right now.

      DISTINGUISHING YOUR BOX FROM YOUR SELF

      Possibility Management is thoughtware from Archiarchy. Archiarchy is the regenerative nonmaterial-value initiation-centered culture that is naturally emerging around the world now that Matriarchy and Patriarchy have run their course.
       
      From the perspective of Archiarchy, direct consequences of regarding your 'self' as your Box, include:
      • Being Confused due to thinking that opinions, judgements, prejudices, assumptions, expectations, conclusions, projections, stories, etc., yours, other peoples', or institutions', are 'true' and 'real'.
      • It limits what is Possible for you, for others, in your relating, in your Teams, in your Creating, etc. to the confines of your psycho-emotional world.
      • Since the Box is a set of dead, mechanical reactions, you regard yourself as a set of dead mechanical reactions.
      • You submit yourself to being treated as a dead mechanical object which can be bought or sold, told what to do, and be paid a certain amount per hour for doing what someone higher than you in the hierarchy tells you to do, even if it is beneath your dignity to do so.
      • You also view others as dead, mechanical objects which you can then abuse, disregard, disrespect, make assumptions about, make judgements about, enslave, feel superior / inferior to, dispose of, ignore, kill, abandon - whatever fits into your childhood Survival Strategy.
      • Your absent-minded conclusions about humans being dead mechanical objects block huge quantities of Potential, and diverse qualities of Nonlinear and Unreasonable options, from becoming available to you.
      Possibility Management proposes an Experiment to try: Change your definition of 'self' away from 'your known Survival Strategy'.
       
      If you do this Experiment, what then shall you regard as your 'self'?
       
      That question gets no answer right now.
       
      The Experiment starts with making a distinction: You have a Box. You are not your Box. Neither are they their Box.
       
      If one Box, which is dedicated to being 'right', encounters another Box, which is also dedicated to being 'right', the resulting interaction becomes some form of subtle or overt war. This is true for the Boxes of both individuals and organizations. Look at the history of human beings...
       
      If you look inside your Box, what you will find is a 'Being', an amorphous, slightly gelatinous cloud of Being, which is inhabiting your 5 Bodies (physical, intellectual, emotional, energetic, and archetypal bodies), wearing them like a body-glove, a tight fitting jumpsuit, guarding itself from the outside world with its Box.
       
       
      How is that for you? The Possibility of being a Being?

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    • Being Yourself Or Being An Uninitiated Adolescent

      BEGINNING YOUR AUTHENTIC ADULTHOOD INITIATORY PROCESSES

      CHILDHOOD, ADOLESCENCE, AND YOUR BOX

      Your Being is trapped inside of your childhood psycho-emotional defense strategy - your Box - and will remain so until you encounter the beginning of your Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes around your eighteenth birthday.

       

      The problem being, of course, that modern culture systemmatically eliminated and banished Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes some 6000 years ago, at the beginnings of Patriarchy.

       

      Adulthood Initiatory processes are not available in modern culture. To find them, you would need to journey to the edges of modern culture and develop a clear and not-naive sense of what is authentically useful for shifting out of adolescence into adulthood, in reality, and what is merely joining the fan club of a Handsome Holy Tribal Man.

       

      Modern culture can only offer you hierarchical structures - in religion, government, education, military, business. A hierarchy requires many slave-Zombie-workers-consumers at the bottom, and naturally selects for a few psychopaths to reach the top.

       

      Those who are best at doing 'whatever it takes' to grab a position of power will move higher up the hierarchy. The most ruthless climbers are the psychopaths. Now you understand why modern culture is exterminating life on Earth at the fastest possible rate. With naive faith we 'good citizens' submit ourselves to hierchical power structures that serve a psychopathic agenda and have no intention at all of creating a bright future for life on Earth.

      AUTHENTIC ADULTHOOD INITIATIONS AND CONSCIOUSNESS

      Without authentic adulthood initiations, your Being remains powerless and trapped inside of your Box, exactly like a fully developed butterfly trapped inside her chrysalis, or a baby rooster trapped inside his eggshell. No wonder there is Attention Defecit Dissorder and mass shootings at schools, drugs, alcohol, marijuana, depression, suicide... What else should you do with your rage?

       

      But modern culture has edges. Whole new domains exist beyond the thoughtware limits of modern culture.

       

      People who discover the edges of modern culture (and also indigenous culture...) and establish their transformational bridge-building services at those edges, are called 'Edgeworkers'. Perhaps you are already an Edgeworker.

       

      The purpose of investigating Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes is that unless you engage initiations whole-heartedly, your Being remains trapped inside of your Survival Strategy, possibly for the rest of your life. Then you almost never get to be yourself. All you get to be is a fearful naive Being pretending to 'be okay' inside of a phony persona designed to please other people, offend other people, dominate and control other people, or be invisible to other people. But where are located you in your own life? You are not there. So how can someone else be with you? How can you connect? How can you be intimate? The short answer is: you cannot.

       

      An 'Archiarchal Initiation' is 'any process after which you are capable of taking more responsibility'.

       

      Initiations build Matrix in your Being which can hold more Consciousness.

       

      Responsibility is Consciousness in action.

       

      In other words, Responsibility is applied Consciousness.

       

      Consciousness is captured by the network of interwoven, or integrated, Distinctions that have already 'landed' in your Being (not in your mind).

       

      Consciousness is everywhere, like light is everywhere during the daytime, or light is everywhere in an illuminated room. But you can only perceive the light in a physical Space when it strikes a physical object. The quality of the light you perceive is determined by the qualities of the physical object the light strikes: which colors are reflected, which colors are absorbed, the brightness, shinyness, texture, patterns, etc.

       

      The same is true of Consciousness.

       

      Consciousness is everywhere, but you can only perceive the consciousness in an energetic Space when it strikes a physical or energetic object. The quality of the consciousness that appears is determined by the qualities of the Matrix of Distinctions woven into the Being of the object. Rocks reflect rock consciousness. Trees reflect tree consciousness. Snails reflect snail consciousness. Cockroaches reflect cockroach consciousness. Cats reflect cat consciousness. Humans reflect human consciousness.

       

      The difference between human consciousness and any other kind of consciousness, is that Gaia produced organic structures called 'Homo sapien sapien' which are sophisticated and complex enough that our awareness of our awareness and potentials can evolve.

       

      Human beings' Beings can evolve to hold and make use of more and more consciousness.

       

      The more Distinctions integrated into your Being, the more Consciousness you can catch and use. In this Evolution of Consciousness, there is no top end.

       

      Yes, there is a beginning to the Evolutionary Path of becoming aware of yourself. The beginning is when you become aware that you are aware of awareness, aware of your potential, to some degree skillful in Causing Healing and Transformation, and so on. There is a beginning to the Path, but there is no end. This is because, although there are many Paths up the Mountain... there is no Mountain.

       

      Your Evolutionary Path starts with your first Initiatory Process into Authentic Adulthood, 'Step 0', usually discovered by 'accident' or 'coincidence', and usually delivered to you by someone else. Step 0 usually involves shattering a worldview, or subverting part of your Box.

       

      This shocking, painful, enlightening, scary experience is a one-way road. Once 'Humpty Dumpty' falls off the wall and shatters, he can never be put back together again, even by 'all the King's horses and all the King's men'.

       

      You might hate that other person for their part in delivering Step 0. You might, after a while, love them for it. One day you might be called upon to provide Step 0 at exactly the perfect inopportune moment for someone else. If so, please execute it as elegantly and with as much Integrity as you can. It is possible to cause transformation without causing scars.

       

      Unless you are internally reordered during step-by-step Initiatory Processes, unless you learn to 'navigate the transformational Liquid States', you will be left behind in the 'straightjacket' of your psycho-emotional Box, left behind playing your role as a consumable pawn or 'cannon fodder' in already obsolete gameworlds.

       

      Something completely different from this is possible right now. (Yes, we said this already. It is still true.) The 'bad news' is that entering the new possibility can be completely blocked or sabotaged by your unconscious, uninitiated Gremlin.

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    • Being Yourself Or Being An Unconscious Gremlin

      TRANSFORMING YOUR UNCONSCIOUS GREMLIN

      The active part of your Box... the Part taking actions and inactions that protect your Box's Survival Strategy, is called your 'Gremlin'.

       

      Your Gremlin is not outside of you, and it does not come from somewhere else.

       

      Your Gremlin (he or she) is as close to you as being offended, feeling jealous, or plotting Revenge.

       

      Your Gremlin mechanically makes efforts for you to Survive until you go through Gremlin Transformation during which time Gremlin's Nonlinear and Unreasonable resources are unleashed and you learn to use them for Living Full Out as a Free and Natural Adult.

       

      We have discovered the long, hard, slow, and painful way during the last thirty years (since 1991) that, no matter how deep and thorough your Emotional Healing Processes (EHP) may be, and no matter how powerful and clear your Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes may be, you will neither Heal nor be Initiated further into Adulthood if your Gremlin is not transformed. Period.

       

      As natural as a rat eating cheese, your Gremlin will ravenously eat your Healing and your Initiation processes as if he or she is doing you a the biggest favor in the world, as if he or she is 'saving your life', when in fact he or she is only assuring your mummification.

       

      Your Gremlin is utterly clever about blocking any kind of change because your Box is only designed to allow you to Survive within specific internal and external circumstances. Any changes to these circumstances threatens your Box's ability to deliver on its promise to keep you in Survival.

       

      Your Gremlin ruthlessly commits to your Box's need to keep everything the same in your life: your capacity to love and be intimate, your ability to create, your vulnerability for intimacy... Nothing can be allowed to change for fear that your Box might fail to defend you.

       

      Gremlin so effectively undermines any of your attempts to Heal, or Evolve, or Love, that you are wasting time, intention, energy, and money trying to heal or grow-up if you do not first change your Gremlin' mission.

       

      Gremlin Transformation is a deep and thorough one- or two-year professionally guided process.

       

      Please hear our discovery earnestly. It is painful to say this. We wish we knew about this thirty years ago. But we did not. And now we do.

       

      If you have any interest in continuing with Expand The Box training and Possibility Labs, if your destiny calls you to participate in Possibilitator Training, if you actually want to get on with your life and collaborate with Gaia to create what you came here to create, please simply go to the Gremlin Transformation website (https://gremlintransformation.mystrikingly.com), read the details, and get yourself into the next available Gremlin Transformation Team. It does not cost much money or take much time, yet it will change your life and improve what you can offer to other people.

       

      AFTER you succeed in transforming your own Gremlin, your Possibilitator Specialty may even include delivering Gremlin Transformation for others.

       

      One reason Gremlin Transformation is so important on the evolutionary and initiatory Path is that Gremlin Transformation is the prerequisite for Decontaminating your Child Egostate, your Parent Egostate, your Gremlin Egostate, and your Demon Egostate out of your Adult Egostate:

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    • Being Yourself Or Being A Contaminated Adult

      DECONTAMINATING YOUR ADULT EGOSTATE

      After successfully accomplishing Gremlin Transformation, you are prepared with your Gremlin at your side as an ally, with new Matrix built from experiential distinctions, with EHPs that release your Gremlin from being an agent of terror and suppression to being an agent of creation and transformation.

       

      You now carry a specially sharpened Sword Of Clarity with powerful Distinctions for facing the really big thing that is fucking up your life.

       

      I recognize that these are harsh words. I (Clinton Callahan) feel angry, and sad, and scared that Possibility Trainers were not clear before now about what I am about to tell you. But we were not. And not only that, no Context or Transformational Gameworld that we have so far encountered is clear about this either.

       

      Never before have human beings had the chances that we have now to enter Free And Natural Adulthood. The Mayans did not have this clarity. The Australian aborigines did not have this possibility. The philosphers of China or Greece did not map out this proposal. The Egyptians, Sumerians, Babylonians, Assyrians, Persians, and Phoenicians did not have these processes. The Khmer of Funan did not have these thoughtmaps. The Upanishads and Vedas do not give us these distinctions. Here is a chance to StartOver that is nearly beyond comprehension.

       

      It is a common but powerful Survival Strategy to contaminate your Adult Egostate with your Child Egostate, Parent Egostate, Gremlin Egostate, or Demon Egostate.

       

      This technique of contaminating your Adult Ego State is powerful because anyone expecting you to take Adult Level Responsibility, cannot manipulate or control you by forcing you to strive for 'fairness', because neither the Child, Parent, Gremlin, nor Demon Egostates have any respect for 'fairness'. In the end, your Box wins, and they lose. 'You' Survive. They can go fuck themselves. This is an excellent gameplan... until you become older than eighteen years old.

       

      Then suddenly the thing that protected you through childhood and adolescence has now become your prison.

       

      Contaminating your Adult Ego State blocks any chances you have of accessing the Archetypal Domains.

       

      It is mechanically required that you occupy your simple Decontaminated Adult Egostate before you can gain access to the Archetypal Domains which are your human birthright. Human beings are designed to directly interact with the Archetypal nature of the Universe, but the gateway to the Archetypal Domains is the Decontaminated Adult Egostate.

       

      You have contaminated your Adult Egostate on purpose, even if that purpose is no longer a valid gameplan.

       

      Decontaminating your Adult Egostate is a focused year or two of Work, with a paid coach at your side, and a Team at your back. Gremlin Transformation is a prerequisite to the Adult Egostate Decontaminations. There is no way around this for Being Yourself.

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    • Being Yourself Or Being In Prison

      BEING IN PRISON FOR WITH A LIFE-LONG SENTENCE FOR BEING BORN IN MODERN CULTURE

      KEEPING YOURSELF IN PRISON?

      Even after earning a Master's or Doctoral Degree at a modern culture University, you will most probably still be locked deep within a nested series of 8 Prisons.

       

      We offer you thousands of pages of text in books (Conscious Feelings, Building Love Than Lasts, No Reason), articles (see articles at Jewels Of Possibility), and websites (see Spaceport) to substantiate the claim made in the above sentence.

       

      Still, nothing is more impressive than:

      And that is exactly where you are: stuck solidly away in one or more of the 8 Prisons which is holding you back from being able to set even one foot solidly into Adulthood.

      1. Mother's Belly
      2. Father's Control
      3. Parents' Household
      4. School System
      5. Birth Country Beliefs
      6. Birth Religion Beliefs
      7. Patriarchy
      8. Linear Life Plan
      Can you be yourself in prison?
       
      It is a simple question, with a simple answer: "No, not really."
       
      Being Yourself is a an 'Epic Shit' journey of escaping from - or utterly eradicating - a formidable series of 8 Prisons that you unconsciously fortify to keep yourself from becoming a Centered, Grounded, Bubbled, Present, Armed, and Vociferous Adult with Tools and Agency.
       
      Nobody can get out of these Prisons for you. If they escape, it does not mean that you escape.
       
      On the other hand, there is only one person who can keep you in those Prisons.
       
      In Prison they do not teach you how to escape from prison...
       
      To find Prison Escape Tricks, and to plan and execute your Escapes, you require clear information sources that are outside of the Prison System.
       
      You also need to build a tightly-bonded Prison Escape Team, such as a 3Cell, a Possibility Team, or a Pirate Prison Escape Team.
       
      Nice people never escape from Prison. They just keep mopping floors and cleaning up other people's messes...
       
      This means, your first preparation for escaping Prison may be Asshole Training.

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      Yes, those are contact lenses. Looking at what you are looking with includes looking at why you are wearing contact lenses.

    • Being Yourself Or Being Adaptive

      BEING A 'NICE' PERSON - A 'GOOD' CITIZEN - IS KILLING YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT EVEN ALLOWED OCCUPY YOUR LIFE

      THE WORLD MAY BE DYING BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT ABLE TO DEFEND HER

      Modern culture forces you to submit your sovereignty even before you are born. You do not have to give it away, but the vast majority of us do. The 'doctors' probably had your mother on some kind of a 'modern' prenatal care program: analyzing the baby's growth and development, checking their personal health progress, giving them lifestyle tips and regular 'testing opportunities' (all of which make money for the doctor's lifestyle opportunities...)

       

      Probably you were scanned and probed while still in your mother's womb. Probably your birth was forced according to the doctor's golf schedule. You may even have been cut out of your mother's womb with a completely unnecessary Cesarean operation. (In Brazil, 80 to 90 percent of women in private hospitals deliver by Cesarean surgery because it 'allows mothers and doctors to better organize their time'... even though results show that Cesarean birth can adversely effect a child's sensory perception, sensory integration ability, neuropsychiatric development, and the infant-mother relationship...).

       

      In an Archiarchal tribe, a child chooses her or his own parental caretakers as soon as she or he can crawl. They go live in whichever household they prefer because they are a child of the village, not the child of an isolated nuclear family, or the child of a single mom desperately trying to survive in the city.

       

      A modern child gets shipped off to 'day care' or 'kindergarten' at two, three, or four years old, sliding into the Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware program of public school for the next fourteen years of their life.

       

      What would have happened to you if you disagreed trying to force yourself to be adaptive? What would they have done to you? What would the consequences have been if you did not fit into the program?

       

      Right... the consequences would have been so significant in terms of your own actual survival that you hardly even thought about it. Your highest mastery of social skills is in Being Adaptive.

       

      What does 'Being Adaptive' mean? It mean perceiving, thinking, behaving according to the imperatives given by the surrounding gameworld, culture, family traditions.

       

      Being Adaptive means giving your Center, Authority, and Sovereignty away to the current local 'authority figure', letting your mechanical Survival Strategy prirorities take over and decide for you, instead of you Being Yourself and letting your Infinite Resources create through you what is truly wanted and needed in the Present Space.

       

      Being Adaptive means encouraging your Gremlin to play out its unconscious behaviors at the cost of Intimacy, Vulnerability, Presence, Connection, Possibility, and Love.

       

      Choosing to be Adaptive means that you value your past Baggage more than you value your present Creation.

       

      The central consideration being: Can you Be Yourself if you are Being Adaptive?

       

      The central answer is: Probably not.

       

      If who you are at your core is 'adaptive', then your Survival Strategy is to not be there, e.g. take no Stand, make no Boundary, make no Decision, refuse to Say What You Want, create no Clarity, remain Confused, make no Commitment.

       

      If you are not there, how can anyone be there with you?

       

      There are two answers to this question:

      1. They cannot be with you.
      2. They can be Adaptive with you.

      Most often how #2 shows up is in bands of roving adolescents carrying beer, smokables, and skateboards, no one leading, no one following, some kind of 'lowest-common-denominator' 'group mind' aimlessly moving the cloudy mob around consuming whatever is needed to maintain the lack of focus or care until external circumstances (police, parents, school authorities, rain, cold, hunger, or dark...) force the mob to break up and go somewhere else.

       

      The Gremlin payoff for 'not being there' and forcing others to then not be able to be with you, is to claim to be 'rejected', that they have 'excluded you', that you are 'discriminated against', that you are being 'victimized'... and then, yes now! You can go full out and take Revenge.

       

      A common kind of Revenge to take is to be visibly unhappy, visibly unsuccessful, to be 'a failure'. Then everyone can see that you had 'bad parents'.

       

      But possibly the greatest Revenge your Gremlin can take on everyone all at once is to commit suicide.

       

      Yes, that will show them!

      HOW TO STOP BEING ADAPTIVE

      How can you exit the Survival Strategy of Being Adaptive?

       

      First, are you sure you want to?

       

      It is simple to stop being Adaptive.

       

      You do it the same way you started Being Adaptive.

       

      You started it. You can stop it.

       

      That will be your map for stopping Being Adaptive: find in excruciatingly painful detail exactly when, how, and why you started being Adaptive in every single example during your day and night, and do something different from that.

       

      This is not about 'positive thinking'. No 'aphorisms'... no 'advice from the Dalai Lama' will do it.

       

      You are are the one doing it. You are the one who can stop doing it.

       

      The strongest practice we can recommend, AND WE HOPE YOU TRULY AND IMMEDIATELY START DOING THIS, is to fiercely commit to participating in a full year of weekly attendance at Violence Anonymous Meetings. In person or online.

       

      Why Violence Anonymous? Because by being Adaptive you are being violent with yourself. You are doing Gremlin Self Cannibalism.

       

      Be fully attentive and fully participative in formal Violence Anonymous meetings AT LEAST TWICE, BETTER THREE MEETINGS EACH WEEK FOR ONE WHOLE YEAR MINIMUM.

       

      This can save your life. This is what can confront your Gremlin's Self-Violating Survival Strategy at its core, at its roots. This is what can give you the possibility of coming back to life.

       

      At Violence Anonymous you will be forced to painfully acknowledge how dedicated you are to being addicted to blaming, complaining, giving excuses, lying, deceiving others, deceiving yourself, and being adaptive rather than living.

       

      Thank god! Finally! The shit hits the fan!

       

      It is not a pretty sight, except when the sun rises on your new future. Then you can stick around in Violence Anonymous Teams and help others come back to life also!

      SURVIVING VS. LIVING

      You may be comfortable following the familiar thoughtware in your brain, the habit patterns of your Box. Sure, your Box has allowed you to survive.

       

      This is all your Box can give you: Survival.

       

      But you... you are designed to hatch out of your Box and to enter the Evolutionary Path of ongoing Authentic Adulthood Initiations.

       

      You are designed to be Centered, Grounded, Bubbled, to be Present in 5 Bodies, and to profitably navigate your Feelings and Emotions.

       

      You are capable of Stellating your Feelings Archetypes.

       

      You are intended to open the archetypal Pearl at the center of your Being.

       

      You have the power to Transform your Gremlin and Decontaminate your Adult Egostate.

       

      You are designed to distill your Bright Principles.

       

      You are capable of Building enough Matrix to formally jack-in to your Archetypal Lineage.

       

      You have the Inner Navigation sensitivity to do Emotional Healing Processes (EHP) and complete Incomplete Emotions.

       

      You are designed to serve E.C.C.O. on Earth.

       

      You have the capacity to Cavitate, Occupy, and Navigate Spaces in extraordinary Contexts that never existed on Earth before.

       

      You have been given Nothingness and the Unknown as Infinite Resources for building out new Archiarchal Gamespace.

       

      Sure... you can continue surviving inside of your Box of habits, rules, beliefs, assumptions, projections, conclusions...

       

      Your Box can survive.

       

      But your Being wants to live.

       

      What is that?

    • Experiments In Being Yourself

      What 'self' is solidified inside of you? Who are you being solid for?

      Has something been solid for so long that this part is 'crystallized'?

      What is evolving? If it is evolving, who are you now? And now?

      As you try these experiments, please be gentle with yourself.

      This is an explorative journey. Do not make sudden moves. Enjoy the discoveries. Find a new place and hang out there for a while.

      There are so many interesting options that may not have, at first, been visible.

      And don't worry. It always comes back together all by itself.

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      DECIDE TO BECOME AN EXPERIMENTER WHO IS DISCOVERING AND EXPERIENCING BEING YOURSELF.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.01

      This Experiment starts with you inventing a challenge for yourself. It does not have to be much or take much time or energy. By accomplishing the challenge it is like stepping over a line in the sand. On one side of the line you are the you that you already know yourself to be. When you step over the line, with both feet!, you enter a new and to some degree unpredictable future. The challenge could be as simple as standing up right now, wherever you are, raising your left hand fully straight up, and shouting without warning, "I am an Experimenter!"

      Or it could be taking €20 out of your wallet and giving it to the next beggar you see, saying, "I give you this as an Experiment in being an Experimenter."

      Or it could be calling up your mother right now on the phone and as soon as she answers, you say, "I have figured it out! It was true all along but I could never say it and now I can! I am an Experimenter! And I love you!"

      Or so on...

      After you cross your self-drawn 'line' and obtain entry into your new Experimenter's world, open your Beep! Book, draw an ink line across a page, and write: "Hereafter writes an Experimenter!"

      Then write, without thinking, the design for your next 3 Experiments, written as challenges to your new 'self', the 'Experimenter Self' which has just been granted formal permission to come alive.

      Make your 3 Experiments juicy and exciting to do.

      Then do them.

       

      After doing the 3 Experimenter's Experiments, please register Matrix Code BEINGYOU.01 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. This Experiment is worth 9 Matrix Points.

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      NOTICE THAT WHERE YOUR ATTENTION GOES, YOUR ENERGY FLOWS. FIND THE PURPOSE OF FLOWING ENERGY INTO THE PLACES WHERE YOU PUT YOUR ATTANTION.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.02

      Use your Purpose Sniffer - one of your 13 Tools - to locate the Purpose of why you are putting your Attention where you put your Attention - consciously or unconsciously - and also the Purpose of where you are NOT putting your attention.

      Start a new page in your Beep! Book titled: PURPOSE AND ATTENTION. For the next 3 weeks, set a timer to go off 5 times each day. As soon as the timer Beeps!, stop for a few minutes and write down wherever you now are or recently have been focusing your Attention or NOT focusing your Attantion, and what the Purpose is for that.

      Between times also Notice where other people place or do not / cannot place their Attention, and guess why this might be so.

      Once or twice each day for these 3 weeks, go check with a person and say, "Can I check something with you?"

      If they say, "Yes," then you say, "I was using my Purpose Sniffer to Scan for your Attention, and I am thinking that the Purpose for you putting your Attention here ___________ is..... and the Purpose for you NOT putting your attention there _____________ is..... What do you think about this? How accurate was my Scanning?"

      Write down any feedback or Coaching they give you in your Beep! Book about your Scanning for the Purpose of placing or not placing Attention.

      Reflect deeply in yourself about those same Purposes which the person you Scanned might reveal. Do any Emotional Healing Processes (EHP) that come up for you.

       

      After the 3 weeks, please register Matrix Code BEINGYOU.02 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. This Experiment is worth 9 Matrix Points.

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      BECOME ABSURDLY EFFECTIVE AT PUTTING YOUR ATTENTION ON YOUR ATTENTION AS PREPARATION FOR PRACTICING SELF OBSERVATION.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.03

      For the this whole week, focus each day on practicing 3 times per day a particular Split Attention Practice. For example:

      • Listen to a sound while at the same time you listen to a thought. Write them both down.
      • Focus your eyes on one object and rotate one finger in a circular pattern in the air while humming a tune that you like.
      • Bend over a chair or hang off a couch or bed in a weird physical position (do not hurt yourself...) and make a short telephone call with someone without telling them what you are up to even if they can see your weird position.
      • Feel the fear you have of existing and being seen while at the same you time sing out loud an entire song while you are walking down the street in a shopping zone, or walking down a hallway at 'work', or while waiting for your food to be served in a restaurant.
      • Etc.
      For the next week, put a Second part of your Attention on your First Attention and Notice the quality of Attention you are using in your First Attention and why.
      For example, is your First Attention being use to flirt with sexual energy? To play high status? To stay invisible so you do not stand out? To be successful? To be first? To be best? To open the inner doorways to unlimited creation in your actions and words? To connect with your Muse? To not get blamed? To be a hero? Use your Second Attention to Notice the Purpose of your First Attention.
      Write down in your Beep! Book the various Purposes you discover at work in your inner world. Each Purpose is being served by a different Part of you. The webwork of interactions between your different Parts is your Inner Ecosystem, you 'Inner Zoo'. Draw a diagram in your Beep! Book of how your Inner Ecosystem works, who controls whom, what each creature's various roles are, who has power and status, who tries to be clever, who tries to avoid being caught, how each one serves you or displeases you.
       

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      USE YOUR SELF OBSERVATION TO OBSERVE THE VARIOUS WAYS YOU HAVE OF BEING AND NOT BEING YOURSELF. FIND OUT WHY YOU WOULD EVER NOT WANT TO BE YOURSELF.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.04

      For this experiment, you will use the existence of a screencap. What is a screencap? A screencap is a single image isolated from the continuous image sequence of a film.

      The experiment lasts one day and goes like this:
      Set your timer for 60 minutes. When the timer rings, you immediately stop whatever you are doing, as if you were instantly frozen.
      You become a freeze frame. Next, you step out of your physical body with your energetic body still frozen. You can now look at yourself from the outside, the situation you are in, the encounter you are having.

      You can look from the outside at what you're feeling, what's on your mind right now, what you're striving for, where your path is going, what your current goal is.

      What are you on the way for, what drives you?
      You can also notice the resistances that are there right now, what makes it so hard for you right now to be YOU, to be in this body and to live this life?
      Write all this down in your Beep! Book, then re-enter your physical body with your energetic body and let it come alive again.
      Continue your journey until the timer rings again.

       

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      EXPERIMENT TO FIND DIFFERENT WAYS TO EXPERIENCE YOUR BEING EVEN IF IT IS BURIED DEEP INSIDE OF YOUR BOX.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.05

      Experiential Reality opens up an entirely different world from Verbal Reality. This is an Experiment in using Experiential Reality to play around with locating and meeting your Being even it is hidden away behind a ‘worldview,’ a ‘paradigm,’ a ‘belief system,’ a ‘psychological defense mechanism,’ a ‘survival strategy,’ your ‘comfort zone,’ your ‘ego,’ or your ‘personality.’

       

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      MEET OTHERS AS IF WHO THEY ACTUALLY ARE - AND WHO YOU TRULY WANT TO BE WITH - IS THEIR BEING, INSTEAD OF STOPPING AT THE SUPERFICIAL LEVEL OF MEETING THEM AS THEIR BOX.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.06

      From now on, refuse to have conversations that bore you, that you have because you think you are obligated or because the other person expects it or because it has always been that way. While you are doing this, your precious life time is passing.
      Refuse to talk about things you already know and say phrases you've said before.
      Stop it right now, don't waste one more second on it.
      Go through your last three days in your mind and remember all the encounters you had during that time.

      In which of these encounters did you feel bored? In which one did you think you are obligated? In which one did you follow the unspoken expectation of the other?

      In which of these encounters did you regurgitate old familiar things like a cow regurgitates grass? Sentences that are empty, meaningless?
      Write this down in your Beep! Book.
      Then start with a day in which you make a different decision.
      The new decision is for 24 hours and is called:
      I will not have a conversation today that bores me.
      I don't follow unspoken expectations of others.
      I will not say sentences today that I have said before.

       

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      EVERYBODY HAS 4 BRAINS. FIND OUT WHICH OF YOUR 4 BRAINS IS DOMINANT AND DESCRIBE HOW RELYING ON THIS ONE BRAIN INTERFERES WITH YOU BEING YOUR 'TRUE' SELF.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.07

      Find a person who will do this experiment with you.

      The person's job is to interview each of your 4 brains for 8 minutes.

      The person does not necessarily need to know more details about the 4 brains, it is enough if you know more details. The person just needs to know that he is talking to one of your 4 brains and what color it is.

      So the interviewer asks, and you answer as one of those 4 brains. The interviewer asks all 4 brains in turn. (If you do it online, record it).
      After the interviews, there might be more clarity as to which of the 4 brains is the strongest at the moment.
      Now ask the interviewer for possibilities:
      Please give me possibilities to use the other three brains more and thus be more myself - my Being.
      Then exchange the roles.

       

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      EVERYBODY INHABITS 3 WORLDS ALL THE TIME. WRITE A CHARACTER STUDY OF WHO YOU ARE IN THE MIDDLE WORLD, THE UNDERWORLD, AND THE UPPERWORLD.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.08

      Read this website https://3worlds.mystrikingly.com
      Sit down every night for a week and write out detailed answers to the following questions with examples in your Beep! Book:

      • Who was I today in my Middleworld?
      • Who was I today in my Underworld?
      • Who was I today in my Upperworld?

      Write a few sentences for each point, as if it were possible to look at yourself and your day from the outside.

      Make notes throughout the day in your Beep! Book that you can use for your writing in the evening.

      Research to write about:

      • See if your roles change from day to day in each of the 3 Worlds.
      • Notice what your Purpose is for being each of these ways, both in the immediate present while you are being that way.
      • Notice late what the repercussions are for you and others from you having been that way.
      • What do you think or feel about any of these roles? Are any of them your 'true' Self? If not, what are they?

      After sharing your research from this Experiment at your Possibility Team, please register Matrix Code BEINGYOU.08 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.

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      YOUR INNER ECOLOGY OF PARTS IS AN ENTIRE ZOO. USE SELF OBSERVATION TO CLASSIFY YOUR PARTS IN A HIERARCHY OF REASONS AND VALUES, INCLUDING SHADOW VALUES.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.09

       

       

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      EACH OF YOUR PARTS HAS ITS OWN BAGGAGE. USE SELF OBSERVATION TO FIND THE BAGGAGE OF EACH OF YOUR PARTS. WEIGH YOUR BAGGAGE. IS IT WORTH YOUR EFFORTS TO KEEP CARRYING EACH PIECE OF BAGGAGE?

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.10

      Stay by yourself for a whole day. Don't meet anyone, don't talk to anyone, turn off your cell phone, don't answer phone calls.

      When you go out, only go to places where you won't meet other people if possible. Take your Beep! Book with you.
      On this day, when you are all alone, you make all the decisions for yourself. You don't have to explain them to anyone, you don't even have to name them. All causes and effects are set and received only by you.
      Notice by observing yourself which of your parts feel heavy. Where is the baggage you are carrying?
      Also notice which is the part that is observing? Which part is observing and which part is being observed?
      You have 5 bodies. Observe them. What do you notice about them, what stands out? Which of your 5 bodies is carrying some baggage?
      What does this baggage look like? How heavy is it? Where did this body get the it?

      Since when does this body have the load and drag it with it? What do you get out of it, what is your benefit in doing this?
      Write a lot in your BEEP!Book that day. Also make drawings about the different parts.

      It's not about anything else that day, take your time to figure it all out at your leisure.
      Once you have found and described the baggage, you can ask yourself if it is worth the effort?

      Do you want to keep carrying the load around with you? What other possibilities are there for you?
      Which of your parts answers this question?

       

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      USE YOUR SELF OBSERVATION TO DETECT YOUR BELIEFS. WHAT ARE YOU BELIEVING ABOUT YOURSELF? ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE? ABOUT LIFE? ABOUT WHAT IS POSSIBLE OR IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU? WHY ARE YOU BELIEVING THIS?

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.11

      Answer these questions in the form of an interview with a second person who questions you.
      The question: "Why do you believe that?"should always be asked three times in the interview.
      Here is a little more detail:
      There are five topics:
      - Beliefs about yourself
      - Beliefs about other people
      - Beliefs about life
      - Beliefs about what is possible for you
      - Beliefs about what is impossible for you
      The interviewer first asks you about the first topic, what you believe about yourself.
      Then he asks you three times in a row why you believe that.
      By repeating the question, you have the possibility to look under the rug where your first answer lies.
      And by asking you a third time, you can uncover an even deeper layer.
      Record the interview. Make notes in your BEEP!Book based on the recording.

       

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      ARE YOU WRONG? WHAT ARE YOU WRONG ABOUT? WHAT MAKES YOU WRONG? WHO BENEFITS WHEN YOU ARE WRONG? HOW DO YOU KEEP FINDING EVIDENCE FOR THE STORY THAT YOU ARE WRONG?

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.12

      Ask 10 people the following question: Please tell me in what way I keep behaving as if I was wrong / as if there is something wrong with me.
      The experiment is complete when you have asked 10 people this question and written the answers in your Beep! Book. If you don't write it down, it didn't happen.

       

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      THE WORLD AND LIFE ARE HAPPENING RIGHT NOW EVERYWHERE AROUND YOU AND INSIDE OF YOU. HOW ARE YOU IGNORING YOUR OWN LIFE AND BEING REFLEXIVELY ADAPTIVE TO OTHERS AROUND YOU? IS IT MEN? IS IT WOMEN? WHO ARE YOU WITH THEM?

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.13

      You can find out if you are adapting to others by doing just that in an experiment: adapting.
      This is an experiment in which you adapt yourself to others in order to find out if you adapt yourself to others.
      Spend 3 days adapting unconditionally, without question, to the people around you.
      You can try this out, for example:
      - Don't disagree. Ever.
      - Don't say what you really think.
      - Don't say what you really need.
      - Don't give feedback.
      - Don't give coaching.
      - Don't hold space in the 4 days.
      - Don't decide anything.
      - Don't choose.
      - Join in.
      - Run with it.
      - Get lost in the crowd.
      - Be an animal in the herd.
      - Don't stand against others.
      You may find that after the 3 days you have much more clarity about where you are conforming and suppressing your being. Is now the time to make a new decision?

       

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      LEARN WAYS TO CHECK IF YOU ARE CENTERED, GROUNDED, BUBBLED, WEARING YOUR 13 TOOLS, HAVE YOUR GREMLIN AT YOUR SIDE, YOUR SWORD TO HAND, CALLING IN YOUR BRIGHT PRINCIPLES, CAVITATING AND HOLDING SPACE FOR YOURSELF.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.14

       

       

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      MAKE DAILY JOURNEYS OUT OF YOUR MENTAL PRISON INTO THE EXPERIENTIAL WORLDS BOTH INSIDE OF YOURSELF AND OUTSIDE OF YOURSELF, MAKING EFFORTS TO BE YOUR EXPERIENCE RATHER THAN BEING YOUR THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.15

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      USE YOUR SELF OBSERVATION TO NOTICE THAT ONCE YOU ENTER FIRST POSITION YOUR FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS BECOME AVAILABLE TO USE RIGHT NOW AS A RESOURCE FOR BEING YOURSELF.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.16

       

       

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      MAKE ONGOING JOURNEYS THROUGH YOUR INNER LANDSCAPES USING YOUR FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS TO NAVIGATE YOUR BEING INTO THE PRESENT.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.17

       

       

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      CATCH ALL THE TIMES YOU LIE IN ONE DAY. DOCUMENT WHAT YOU LIE ABOUT AND WHY YOU LIE ABOUT IT. WHAT ARE YOU TRULY AFRAID ENOUGH OF THAT YOU WOULD RATHER LIE AND LOSE YOUR INTEGRITY THAN STAND FOR THAT?

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.18

       

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      EXPERIMENT WITH BEING RADICALLY HONEST ABOUT WHAT YOU NOTICE. NOT YOUR STORY OR INTERPRETATION ABOUT WHAT YOU NOTICE. ONLY REPORT WHAT YOU EXPERIENTIALLY NOTICE.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.19

       

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      FOR THE NEXT 4 WEEKS WITHHOLD NOTHING AND ADAPT TO NOTHING. STAY ALERT AND IN CONNECTION. LET THIS BE YOUR BREAKTHROUGH TO BEING AUTHENTIC.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.20

       

       

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      FOCUS ON EXPERIENTIAL SENSATIONS OF YOUR FEELINGS AND SENSATIONS FROM YOUR 5 BODIES TO MAKE YOUR 'NOW' SMALL ENOUGH TO BE FULLY ABSORBED AND ENTERTAINED BY THE VERY SMALL NOW PRESENT MOMENT.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.21

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      FIND 3 PLACES EACH DAY WHERE YOU HAVE NOT BEEN SAYING "STOP!" TO YOUR GREMLIN, YOUR MIND, YOUR HABITS, YOUR SURVIVAL STRATEGY, YOUR PROJECTIONS, YOUR ADAPTIVENESS, AND OTHER PEOPLE IN YOUR SURROUNDINGS. PRACTIVE LETTING YOUR BEING SAY, "STOP!" AT THE RIGHT TIME AND AT A PROPER INTENSITY.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.22

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      CHOOSE ONE OF YOUR FAMILIAR INNER 'PARTS' AND STOP HOLDING IT TOGETHER AS IF IT WERE SOME KIND OF CENTRAL STRUCTURE IN YOUR SURVIVAL STRATEGY. YOU HAVE ALREADY SURVIVED. NOW THE THING THAT HELPED YOU SURVIVE BLOCKS YOU FROM BEING YOURSELF. MAKE TIME TO LET THE GLUE HOLDING YOUR ACT TOGETHER DECOMPOSE. ENJOY THE RELAXING EXPERIENCE OF IT.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.23

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      USE YOUR SELF OBSERVATION TO COMPARE THE STORY THAT YOUR BOX TELLS YOU ABOUT YOU AND OTHERS AND THE WORLD AROUND YOU, AND WHAT YOU PERCEIVE WHEN THERE ARE ZERO STORIES. CONSIDER THAT ALL STORIES ARE THERE TO DECEIVE YOU. FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE WHEN YOU STOP DECEIVING YOURSELF WITH STORIES.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.24

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      IN YOUR POSSIBIITY TEAM, NOTICE WHAT STOPS YOU FROM PLAYING DIFFERENT CONTRASTING CHARACTERS IN A 10 MINUTE IMPROVISED STATE PERFORMANCE. ASK PEOPLE TO HELP YOU DISCOVER THE WAYS YOU AVOID SHIFTING IDENTITY BECAUSE YOU THINK ONE IDENTITY IS YOUR 'REAL SELF'.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.25

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      STOP USING THE STORIES THAT CAUSE YOUR FEAR OF CONNECTING AS AN EXCUSE AVOIDING TO DISCOVER THAT YOU ARE NOT BROKEN.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.26

      Spend two weeks collecting notes for and writing complete details in your Beep! Book all of your inner Stories that you keep running over and over in your mind that trigger deep fears in your heart about even the idea of connecting with one or more other people. Your Stories do not have to make sense or even be connected to each other. Don't worry about this part.

      Write your stories in the 'second person' perspective, that is, as if the story were about John Doe or Mary Smith, and not about you.

      You have created these Stories and still carrying these Stories for a reason.

      In this Experiment, you are not going to fulfill that reason!

      The reason is so that you can NOW write the stories into a book about a character who you have known very intimately for decades: yourself!

      Do not worry about how long the story you are writing is. Perhaps it will be chronological. Perhaps it will be theme related. Do not worry right now about all this.

      Use this book writing strategy:

      1. Format this story with a beginning, a middle, and a wrap-up ending.
      2. Write the wrap-up first so you know where you are headed as you go along the way and make decisions about which path to take in your storytelling.
      3. Write the beginning second, and keep refining it as you go along so that the beginning sucks the reader in at the very first sentence.
      4. Write what happens next, and next, and next, in a style that keeps even you interested and excited to know what happens next after that.
      5. Finish writing the Story! (no matter what). This is why you write the ending and wrap-up first. It may already be done before you know it!

      After publishing your story with a somehow related photo at Medium.org, realize that with that one click you have put all these Stories outside of yourself into the material world as words on paper, as letters in a file on a computer someplace. These Stories are now out of you and can drift one-second-at-a-time into the past. They have become history. They are no longer a secret you have to keep alive because no one else knows about them. They are part of the history of humanity and now reside as part of the human morphogenetic field, our shared story cloud. Now you are free to get on with your life. You now have an entirely new future to create and explore. Congratulations! Please register Matrix Code BEINGYOU.26 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. This Experiment is worth 18 Matrix Points.

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      START TO INCLUDE THE ARCHETYPAL NATURE OF THE UNIVERSE INTO YOUR DAILY LIFE. INCLUDE INTEGRITY, YOUR WORD, COMMITMENT, DECLARING, CHOOSING, ASKING, ACCOUNTABILITY, CONSEQUENCES, GAMEWORLD BUILDING, ETC. IN THIS WAY, YOU BECOME REALITY.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.27

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      WRITE A LEGEND ABOUT DISCOVERING WHERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW IN YOUR JOURNEY OF ESCAPING THE 8 PRISONS, LIBERATING, PRACTICING AND BEING YOURSELF.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.28

      Document the specific details you use as evidence for finding where you are, your 'X' on the Map of 8 Prisons.

      Make notes about what you think you have done, what you see you have not done, the interactions reflecting back to you who you are being and who you are not being.

      This is a Hero's Journey type of story, but you are the Journeyer.

      This writing is autobiography. The story evolves as you tell it, because the storytelling itself creates more Clarity and Possibility both for you and for the reader than you had before doing this Experiment.

      At the end of your article, as the wrap-up, give three specific examples of what you learned by writing this article.

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      CHOOSE 3 PARTICULAR ARCHIARCHY SKILLS YOU WILL DEVELOP TO ABSURD LEVELS OF COMPETENCE AS VEHICLES FOR YOUR AGENCY.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.29

      There are so many skills you can choose from. For example, scan through:

      How many of these skills can you already apply with measurable agency? Almost none of them are taught in modern culture school... is that your excuse for not learning them?

      For your chosen set of 3 Skills, try to make them 'skills of creation' rather than 'skills of use'.

      For example, 'using chopsticks for eating' is a skill of use, whereas 'carving eating utensils out of wood' is a skill of creation. Yes, to carve wood you may need to gain skills with using a saw, rasp, curved knife, sandpaper, etc. But you focuse on creation rather than use.

      Another example: 'making quiche aux epinards' (spinach quiche) is a skill of using spinach, onions, etc., whereas 'growing vegetables in your backyard garden (including spinach)' is a skill of creation. Again, to grow a garden you will need skills of composting, seed saving, food preservation, weeding, shoveling, wheelbarrowing, etc. But it is the creation skills through which Being Yourself can express itself.

      Another example: playing the 'gummi bears' is a skill of use, whereas 'writing music' is a skill of creation. Yes, to document your music creation you would need to make paper, a ruler to draw straight lines, a pencil, an eraser, or a computer in which you program a music writing app.

      Apply your 3 Skills in useful situations, taking photos or videos to document your agency. Publish your documentation.

      NOTE: The Agency you develop for developing Agency is perhaps even more useful than your Agency, because then you have Agency Agency... the Agency of creating Agency.

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      PRACTICE BEING AN EMERGING AND EVOLVING AGENCY OF YOUR DISTILLED BRIGHT PRINCIPLES

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.30

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      CHECK IN WITH YOURSELF, SENSE WHAT YOU WANT TO CREATE OR EXPERIENCE OR CHANGE RIGHT NOW, AND MAKE CLEAR POWERFUL PROPOSALS TO INDIVIDUALS AND GROUPS

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.31

      Study both the Proposals and the Transformational Proposals websites. They offer you a powerful and astonishing set of Relation Creation tools.

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      TAKE A STAND FOR BEING YOURSELF BY BREAKING THROUGH ALL YOUR BELIEFS AND STORIES FROM SCHOOL ABOUT YOU AND WRITING, AND WRITE  AND PUBLISH AN ARTICLE ONLINE.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.32

      Write you article at least 3 to 5 pages long. Tell the step-by-step story of you becoming more-and-more able to Be Yourself. Write and give examples about:

      • What were your surprising or dismaying discoveries?
      • What new distinctions did you find?
      • What healing processes did you go through?
      • What new practices did you adopt?
      • What opened the door for you to be able to realize or face your blocks or confusions?
      • How did you stop hesitating to try something new?
      • How did you change your relationship with your fears?
      • How did you try something different?
      • What worked?
      • What did not work?
      • What is your cutting edge of discoveries right now?

      Give your article a beginning, a middle, and an end... a wrap up. Let people know that becoming more-and-more yourself is possible. Give them some hints for how to proceed especially when faced with something similar to what you faced.

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      FOR THE NEXT 3 MONTHS, PAY HYPER-ATTENTION TO ANY EXPERIENTIAL MOMENTS OF WHAT YOU COULD CONSIDER AS YOU BEING A FREE AND NATURAL ADULT.

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.33

      You can sense when you are being a Free And Natural Adult because something bigger than Survival is your greatest concern. It is not recklessness. It is Creation. You are generating energetic experience rather than seeking it from others. You have a Minimized NOW yet a big picture overview for your Purpose. You are Unhookable yet Vulnerable and Touchable. You are free of enough Baggage-mass to respond to subtle nudges from any of the Infinite Resources, making optimal use of even the most obscure coincidences, Painting and rolling through Nonlinear and Unreasonable Doorways. You are in a flow which is unique to your Bright Principles and your Archetypal Lineage, yet in service of something greater than yourself, something like the Evolution of Consciousness, something like Gaia.

      The principle at work here is: "If you don't write it down, it didn't happen."

      Write your notes into a self-reflection article, as if you had just climbed Mount Kilimanjaro, have descended off the peak, and are sharing about the various delightful and devastating adventures of your journey.

      After publishing your article with a somehow related photo at Medium.org, please register Matrix Code BEINGYOU.33 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. This Experiment is worth 12 Matrix Points.

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      THERE ARE 34 EXPERIMENTS ABOVE. DO ALL 34 OF THESE 'BEING YOURSELF' EXPERIMENTS SO THAT YOU CAN DISCOVER WHAT IT MEANS: "And it rained for 34 days, and 34 nights, until the sewers backed up and the people had to move into new territory."

      Matrix Code BEINGYOU.34

      Write your own Odyssey, your story as you travelled it from EHP Process to EHP Process, Training to Training, Lab to Lab, Distinction to Distinction, Liquid State to Liquid State. What have you learned and how did you learn it. Who did you meet along the way? Who helped you? Who did you help? ...as you Journey through all 34 Experiments in this Being Yourself website.

      Show thoughtmaps. Provide photographs of locations. Make references to websites and other resources. This is the real thing, and were are the Journeyer. These are the Legends of your Evolutionary Journey of Being Yourself.

      After publishing your story as an article on Medium.org, or as a book with Thoughtware Press, please register Matrix Code BEINGYOU.34 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. This Experiment is worth... you guessed it!... 34 Matrix Points.

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      ...looking at what you are looking with.

    • Being A Mystery

      Being Grounded is a crucial element of Adulthood because, by keeping a bright energetic Grounding Cord between your Energetic Center (which you move with your Intention to your Physical Center) and the core of the Earth, then Gaia can more easily find you.

      DISTINGUISHING YOUR 'BEING' FROM YOUR 'SELF'

      Your Being is wearing your 5 Bodies like a bodyglove. You have been caring for the feeding of your Heart and the feeding your Being.

       

      Who has been doing the caring?

       

      If you are the one doing Experiments with your Being, being Present, being With, Building Matrix in your Being, serving your Bright Principles, being the Space through which your Archetypal Lineage can do its work in the world... then who is the one Experimenting, Building, Serving, or being?

       

      What are you really?

       

      What if you are not your Being?

       

      What if the entire concept of 'being a Being', being a 'self', having a 'self', loving or not loving your 'self', judging whether your 'self' is 'okay' or 'not okay'... what if the whole understanding of 'self'... is a superstitution?

       

      What if the concept of 'self' is a piece of Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware that has been handed down from generation to generation without actually inspecting whether the thoughtware is true or not?

       

      What if 'self' is an illusion?

       

      What if 'self' is 'self' deception?

       

      What if the concept of an individuated, unique, separate 'self' is a childish error of perception?

       

      What if your physical form is a 'consciousness antenna', where the General Field of Consciousness is everywhere around your body, and due to your 5 Bodies' subtle and particular distortions of shape, the antenna picks up certain frequencies or qualities, certain aspects of the General Field of Consciousness, but this same exact General Field of Consciousness is informing everyone?

       

      Then there can be no enemy. There can be no 'other'.

       

      What if we are all sacrifices to the Evolution of Gaia becoming more able to manifest Consciousness.

      ADULTHOOD PHASE 5

      There are Phases in Adulthood.

       

      For example, a new Phase in Adulthood starts after experientially distinguishing between Numbness and the radical-neutrality that comes from no longer feeding your Gremlin the intensity of Low Drama.

       

      By relocating your Point Of Origin to the Context emerging from this Distinction, you are no longer Numb, but at the same time you are no longer in Low Drama with anyone or any thing. You shift from being a Victim in Scarcity to being a Possibilitator in ecstatic Creation.

       

      Then it becomes clear: The opposite of Scarcity is not Abundance. The opposite of Scarcity is Creation. A new depth and quality of Experiments unfolds as Phase 5 of you exploratory steps into Adulthood.

       

      Along your way, new Phases keep unfolding:

      ...and so on, in an order that is personal and unique for each person on or off the Earth.

       

      In each Phase of Adulthood, something completely different becomes possible in terms of Being Yourself which was not possible before.

      What lies before you is... Nothing.

       

      All this time and effort , all this Work to grow up and Be Yourself...

       

      Isn't it all about 'being somebody'?

       

      And here we are talking about 'being nobody', being a Space? What?

       

      That the idea of 'self' is actually a superstition. What?

       

      That life happens best when 'you' are not there... What?

       

      Being the Space through which your Bright Principles and Archetypal Lineage can do their Work in the world. What?

       

      Becoming a Trainer in Flying School. Playing Full Out. Inventing High Level Fun moment-to-moment...

       

      Any Questions?

       

      What?

       

      The interesting answers are experiential. The only way to find them is to go there yourself, taking full risk for the outcome, possibly never being able to change your mind and unlearn what you discover. Evolution is a one-way road...

      THE PARADOX OF LOOKING AT WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING WITH

      Can you sing about the song you are singing at the same time you are singing it?

      Can you pat the back of your hand with that same hand?

      Can you lift yourself into the air by pulling up on your own bootstraps?

      Can you look at what you are looking with?

       

      There is a valuable difference to discern between 'thinking about these proposals' and actually trying them out earnestly.

       

      The difference is that in each case, there is a way to do it that works, even if 'who you are now' cannot think of that way in this moment.

       

      Particularly with looking at what you are looking with.

       

      The secret there is to become outrageously skilled with Splitting Your Attention.

       

      Put one part of your Attention on experientially Noticing what you are looking at without making up a Story about what you Notice about what you are looking at.

       

      And while continuing to do that, put another part of your Attention on experientially Noticing what you are looking with, also without making up a Sory about what you Notice.

       

      If you Split Your Attention to look at something while simultaneously looking at what you are looking with, an entirely new experiential Space can open up for you called: the 'Waking State'.

       

      In the experiential Space of the Waking State you might find yourself ongoingly doing Conscious Theater, what one could call Possibility Acting, as a service to your Village, and as an aid to delivering your Archetypal Lineage.

       

      If you are not ongoingly Splitting Your Attention and looking at what you are looking at, plus also at the same time and with the same fierceness of Attention looking at what you are looking with, the result will be that you are Identified with 'what you are looking with's' ordinary unconscious Reactivity to what you are looking at.

       

      There will be no Gap between what you look with and what you look at. Out of your awareness you will then be serving unconscious Purposes for looking at that thing. This makes you a kind of robot, a 'reaction-machine', and if you do it long enough, a Zombie.

       

      When you Practice and gain enough Skill with Splitting Your Attention, and if you have Built enough Matrix to remain in a Waking State Space for a longer time, even when it gets intense - which intensity can begin almost instantly - then a Gap forms between what you look at and what you look with.

       

      The Gap makes it possible for you to no longer be Identified. In fact, you may find yourself falling into that Gap. This can be unimaginably startling. It can seem like you are one of the 3 Men Falling Into A Bottomless Pit, six months later...

       

      But what you are looking with, when you look at a thing whatever it is without any Story attached, includes a myriad of possibilities, none of which come from your unconscious Gremlin habits, or from the unconscious psycho-emotional needs of your Box. Instead you look with:

      Your experiences in the Gap can easily become radically neutral. That is, you could have direct 5 Body experiences with no Stories attached.

       

      Zero Stories.

       

      This is the Space required for a Mage to do her work.

       

      At first this may feel very weird. It can feel so weird that you get an inexplicable headache. One Possibilitator entered this experience of Radical Neutrality and had such an inexplicable headache that he checked himself into the city hospital and demanded to be given a brain scan. Of course they found nothing and the headache went away, but the gentleman involved decided to go back and finish out his career as an insurance salesman.

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