Here are the behaviors I adopted when I Constellated onto my father. These are the behaviors that combine to make my interface with the world, like a full body armored suit. My armor is made of metal pieces constructed around my head, in my torso, and down my spine. This assembly of Purposes is what I peeled off during my Deconstellation process.

• I'm one hundred percent self-controlled.
• I'm ongoingly tense with deep fears.
• I'm afraid of being too much for others.
• I control everything with my intellect.
• I'm in a full-body mental straight-jacket.
• I keep feelings in by tightening my mouth.
• I try to love from my mind.
• I try to do everything perfectly.
• I construct a picture in my mind and embody it as if my picture is reality.
• I'm an ambassador of justice and equality, in other words, the Police.
• I have rules about being healthy, but then I lie about my secret unhealthy life and about not being in integrity.
• I wait for others to approach me. I never approach them.
• I'm adaptive and will do anything if someone is kind to me.
• I believe that everyone is worth more than me.
• The only thing worth doing is when I give myself up for others.
• I live my world saturated in grandiosity.
• I abuse others by making false promises that I cannot keep.
• I live in ninety percent adaptiveness to others.
• I never say no - in order to not hurt others.
• I have gigantic fear of creating reactions in others, fear of making other people feel something.
• I believe it is necessary to put on a fake act and 'keep it together', to never let a single scratch show on my armour.
• I believe that the more I try, the worse things get. I can never really win.
• I ongoingly beat myself up so badly that others find no need to beat me up.
• I feel like a child who has never been shown how to relate.
• I let manipulation happen to myself and to others.
• If I create any visible feelings in others, something bad will happen to me, e.g. they might hit me.
• I plan everything in advance so I can be prepared to keep it together or have a good excuse.
• I am super kind, understanding, and respectful but it is all fake, because when I can't keep my act going, I will destroy everything. I try desperately to keep my show going on because I'm afraid I might hit people, like I did before.
• I am the only competent and responsible person in the room. Everyone else is clearly stupid, doesn't get it, doesn't understand me, is not kind, and does not care as much as I do.
• I saw my mother as weak and manipulative, where I am already her boss. I did not want to copy her, so I went to my dad to learn to control myself. My mum is a little child, leaving me be responsible for her. I must take care of her.
• I am so smart that I anticipate in advance what I need to do.
• I don't have to bear the tension of unfulfilled expectations, because I give my center to everyone around me.
• My dad's strategies do not work in Possibility Management, so instead of committing to PM I circle, I circle, I circle.
• I am a marionette to my mind and everyone else that I give my center to.
• I have hooks inside my body with strings attached that I give to others to pull on so they can punish me.
• Everything in the world needs to make rational sense or it is invalid.
• I have a steel bar sticking out of my belly that keeps people away from connecting and being intimate with me.

We asked this woman to sketch a drawing of this assembly of Purposes, to draw what it felt like that she has been carrying around with her all her life since she Constellated herself on her father. This means that her father carries and lives inside of essentially this identical construction, because she copied what he has.